Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Adam's fateful lunch dessert



Please let this mean that someone somewhere (even if it's just the dude handing out fortune cookies at PeiWei in North Hills) knows that possibly we'll get good news this weekend.  It would be an amazing Mother's Day gift and I'd be due on my birthday in January.  More acupuncture tonight, I really hope that's helping us.

Sunday, May 6, 2012

International Bereaved Mother's Day

Today is International Bereaved Mother's Day.  What does this mean, you ask?  Today a day that was created 2 years ago and falls on the first Sunday of May.  This is an excerpt from the blog Carly Marie Project Heal that was created after the loss of her son Christian.

This special day was created to honour and celebrate mothers who carry some if not all of their children in their hearts rather than their arms.  In our modern day society, mothers who are grieving the death of their babies and children are usually forgotten. The traditional Mothers Day has proven to be an emotionally difficult day for so many mothers around the world.
On this day each year we come together to celebrate our connection, our babies and children and our hope for the future. We look at their ultrasound photos, polish their urns, lay flowers at their graves, visit special places and light candles in their memory.
Sunday May 6th 2012, get together with your closest friends and family who understand and celebrate you. Celebrate your children.
I have met many friends online that have lost their children, whether it was pregnancy loss through early miscarriage or late pregnancy loss.  These are some of the strongest women that I know.  It's the best support group I could ever have.  We are mothers too, even if we're not recognized in the traditional sense.  We have sons and daughters who are forever in our hearts, some with names, others that we didn't have a chance to name.

I read a quote the other day that I just love and though it can be applied to many different situations, I think that it is so meaningful for those of us who have suffered an unimaginable loss or choice that we had to make for our children.

"You know my name, not my story.
You've heard what I've done, not what I've been through.
 If you were in my shoes, you'd fall the first step"

Today I am celebrating the lives of our daughter Addison Lila, born on September 29th, 2012 and our second baby, who left us on January 11, 2012 at just 7 week gestation.